I was talking to a friend this week and she was expressing a lot of self-judgement. She told me that she goes to bed thinking about all of the things she hadn't completed on her to-do list for the day. She told me that she will try to "reward" herself by allowing herself to do something she enjoys, only after she does all the stuff she doesn't want to do. 

I listened as she talked about how she doesn't feel good enough. I remember the book "The Four Agreements" by Miguel Ruiz. It was a game changer for me. Not that I don't struggle with these four agreements every single day myself, but it is nice to come back to. 

I shared with her one of them: Always Do Your Best. Your best today may be very different than your best tomorrow. After a good nights sleep, a healthy breakfast and a cup of coffee, my best is going to be way better than if I am recovering from Covid (this happened) and am exhausted and healing. It is not fair to judge ourselves every day from one standard. If we wake each day and offer ourselves just a little grace and do our best (whatever that is on that particular day), then we can go to sleep at night without the self-judgement and self-abuse knowing that we did our best and there was nothing more than we could. Maybe we'd learn to be a little bit kinder and more forgiving to ourselves. 

I, like many people, struggle to sit still with meditation. My mind wanders (damn monkey mind)! My hips start to hurt, I get bored, I get itchy and then I give up. I recently discovered meditation that involves rocking the body with the breath. It was a game changer for me. It helps me to focus on the movement and my breath and gives me less opportunity to start wandering. It also keeps my back and hips from locking up. 

I thought I would share a short rocking meditation with you. 

I’ve been recording yoga videos to share this week. I catch myself being super judgmental of my body. Like many women, I am not comfortable with the way I look, but I’m trying real hard.

My body has a story. A year and a half ago I sat and drank beer every day for 11 weeks with my dad who had throat cancer. He could not swallow food so the only calories I could get him to consume was beer. So we drank. And the pounds started piling on.

The week after he passed I took a job that required travel and eating out three meals a day. I was too tired most of the time to exercise by the time I was back to my hotel and grief sucked away anything that was left.

In March my job was eliminated due to the pandemic. I started making positive changes and dropping weight when the quarantine started. I turned to yoga to deal with my anxiety and began making healthier choices. Then I got Covid. I am fortunate I didn’t get as sick as many, but for two weeks I could barely move. As I do start to move my body again I’m finding that I’ve lost some of my strength. I don’t like what I see in the mirror or on videos I made. 

But here’s the thing: all of our bodies have stories. I am strong and getting stronger. I can hug and play with my son. I can go on adventures with my husband. It serves me every single day. I’m learning to be gentle and trying to love this body that gives so much. So, I will share the imperfect photos and videos because I know I’m not alone. It’s hard, but I will learn to love my body. 

After completing my initial yoga pose deck of 55 beginner yoga poses, I knew without a doubt I would be making an advanced deck. I enjoyed hand-illustrating these poses as I studied and learned them. I created the advanced deck with 50 poses. There are some intermediate poses thrown in and definitely some poses that will take awhile for me to master. The deck was made so that it would blend seamlessly with the first deck. 

You can find the new deck on my Shop page, and it will be available on Amazon within the next week! 

I woke up this morning with the words running through my head "Unplug and then plug back in". It wasn't from my IT guy, it was the answer to a client I spoke to yesterday. 

We were talking about anxiety and stress. Right now we live in a world with a whole lot of chaos. We need a way to turn it off and remember to breathe. Then the answer came, "unplug and plug back in". 

So I got up and I made a 5 minute meditation. You don't need anything fancy. You can sit right where you are and be guided through 5 minutes to unplug and plug back in. ​

Last time I shared about My Quarantine Project. Today I would like to mention where to find the tools I’ve created.

With a heart full of gratitude the reaction to the Yoga Art Card Deck has been overwhelming. I have set up a fulfillment service (to print/ship) the decks. I am currently working on additional Yoga tools and will come back with updates as soon as they are ready.

Today I would like to mention where to find the tools.Choose USA or International Delivery

For USA orders you can order from my website here: Yoga with Anastacia Yoga Art Cards

For International Orders you can order here: Anastacia Drake on Amazon

For Affiliate Link Sharing: Through Amazon Affiliate Program, you can find the tools to links share here: Anastacia Drake on Amazon
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It feels a little bit like the world has flipped upside down in the last few months. I thought I would share something positive that has come out of it for me.

​After a few weeks of quarantine I got completely stir crazy (like many out there). I tried to find secluded trails to hike but they were closed. Camp grounds were closed. I found myself struggling with anxiety and feeling a bit trapped.
As serendipity would have it, an ad came across my computer advertising yoga teacher certification. It’s something I’ve always thought about doing but the time commitment away from home was always too much being a mom. Due to the quarantine they had moved teacher certification online for the first time ever. I promptly signed up.
As I worked through the poses I began sketching them all. I made flash cards so that I could memorize the Sanskrit and English name. I looked online for similar flash cards but couldn’t find what I wanted. I decided to just make my own. I added Sanskrit pronunciation, literal translation, anatomy, sequencing tips, and benefits to the card. It gave me something to focus on and I felt my body and mind getting stronger as I worked my way through the program.
With a heart full of gratitude I showed my new yoga art cards to my fellow classmates. The reaction was overwhelming. Everyone was asking to buy them! I had no idea that a project I did for myself would have such an amazing reaction. Within the first few days I sold over 100.
Now I’m super excited to announce that within a week they will be up on Amazon and within two they will be going into bookstores including Barnes & Noble! What started out as a project for myself has turned out to be a project that helps others!
If you’re interested in seeing them! Check them out here!